Good Morning!

Good morning. It is very much so just that. A beautiful morning. I'm sitting in my kitchen with the windows on all sides with the morning sun warming up my back. With coffee in hand, of course. Contemplating skipping my classes, in fact, I think I just made my decision to do so.

This week has been my "mid-life crisis" of my Fall 2010 semester. It's been full of copping out and giving in. I've completed 7 weeks of my senior year in college, and getting to the point where I want to just take a break from all my classes. So I did, but not officially of course.  I need refreshment. Hopefully this weekend will bring that --

Chicago!! Downtown... Fall. Perfect. My dear fiance is running the Chicago marathon this Sunday at 7:30am. Oh how I will be lifting him up in prayer. I'm excited to spend a weekend with him and enjoy the city. I haven't been in the heart of the city for awhile and it's been on my mind a lot. Every time I go up there I wonder if I could ever live there for a period of time. I think it would be great, but you know what? I've always had this fear in the back of my head: terrorists... bombing... being separated from Jared and not being able to find him. Sorry for the Debby downer, but it's true... but then this verse comes to mind, especially this morning:

" ¹¹ One thing God has spoken,
       two things have I heard:
       that you, O God, are strong,
 ¹² and that you, O Lord, are loving.
       Surely you will reward each person
       according to what he has done. "
Psalm 62:11&12

Nothing is out of the hands of my God.  Fear is crippling but oh to have faith that moves out of the shadow of fear and into the sunny rays of our loving God! This is a daily struggle for me to be honest. I'm a very fearful person... a doubting person. And I often doubt the sovereignty of God. I know that this brings me out of a place of trusting in and taking refuge in the Lord and trying to find solutions of my own willpower. It is SO frustrating that it is in my nature to do so. I just want to whole-heartedly trust the Lord is EVERYTHING and move out of fear into peace.

Hmm, that shall be my goal this upcoming week. Moving out of fear, into peace. Fear governs so many areas of my life. If I had no fear in death, what could I set myself out there to do for the Kingdom?

"No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is power of CHRST is ME
From life's first cry to final breath
Jesus COMMANDs my DESTINY
No POWER of hell, NO scheme of MAN
can EVER pluck me from HIS Hand
Til He returns or calls me home,
Here in the POWER of Christ I'll stand "
-In Christ Alone-

Amen. Soak on that.