And we, who with unveiled faces all reflect the Lord's glory, are being transformed into his likeness, with EVER-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.
Yesterday was a hard day. Stubborness, selfishness and pride all played a part. I'm learning that life is all about what I am doing with this second, this minute, this hour, and eventually onto this day. I'm finding that I shouldn't go much past today. It's then I start to get overwhelmed--when I see what I have left in front of me is almost quite intimidating. It's also the other end of the spectrum, when I look around me to see my circumstances and what I can do about them, rather than what God can do. I don't think that I'm talking about an absolute "hands-off" mentality-- but I am to a point. Once discussed and hashed out with God--let. it. go. and look up. Let it rest, lay it at the Cross -- as my mom would say. But it. is. so. hard. I want control. I want every single finger of mine holding on for dear life so know that I am in complete control.
God knew me when he gave me Jared. He knew that he and I would go through situations and circumstances that would cause me to fully take refuge under his shadows--the times I have no control. And honestly, I haven't understood that part about myself until Jared-- how much that I WANT to be in control, when I should really submit. My fight for control has brought me pain and trials... But you know what? I think it's my new prayer request. Because when God takes me through circumstances where I really have no control, I know then that I am at the safest place I could ever be -- under his wing, his shadow, and in his Hand. Since the fall of Adam and Eve, we as women have fought for control in our marriage/relationships. I'm not married yet -- (8 months to go!!!) but I'm thankful God is teaching me how to come under Jared's headship by hiding in Christ! What a great promise that HE will take care of us!! The Lord is good and ever-loving. EVER-loving.
My God is a great big God -- who still loves me after seeing and knowing this wretched soul. I serve a BIG God.
